"Barbie dumped Ken" is what my shirt says lol, dont ya just love titles like that? lol. So lately i've been going through a little bit. I feel like i'm being taken for granted in SO many sense's and I shouldnt have to put up with that. A couple months ago a little incident happened with this guy (I believe I blogged about him a couple weeks ago, scroll down and you'll probably see the long story/vent lol) anywhooooo after the incident I asked him to promise me that he would chill out on flirting with my friends; I saw that our mutual friends were expanding and I'm just like it's common courtesy ya know? He promised. Months passed by and every so often my bestfriend would show me conversations they'd have ... I let it ride until this week. I was being inspector gadget to see what they'd been talking about, low and behold I found exactly what I expected; more flirting. I was kinda taken back that she was actually entertaining this! For a second I wanted to burn her in acid ... Oh my gosh i'm joking, dont take me seriously but I was heated. Idk maybe i'm retarded or just completely oblivious but I was actually more upset with him than her. Typical girl reaction huh? Whatever. So after going back and forth through texts with him I let it go and things pretty much went back to normal which makes me feel dumb. Its like "oh yeah she's cool now so I can go back to getting at her girl". He does what he pleases which is totally fine, he's single so it's not my place to be concerned with what he does, but me on the other hand I continue to stay on the back burner; There's literally no other guys in my life. Not because i'm incapable of having them but when I would like to be with someone, they're the person my attention is on, so everyone else is irrelevant which in this instance is really inconvenient because while he's got a different girl for every hour of the day i'm stuck on stupid. It's almost like i'm scared to let anyone else in my life because ... what if he comes around? Well that train of thought is done. I'm gonna have fun and stop shutting out all these potentially great guys. Not to "get on his level" but just because it's something I feel like I should do for me. At the end of the day, no matter how many guys I flirt with or date; my heart is with him -_- I'm not gonna try to change that, only time can. As for everything else i'm wonderful everyone in my life is amazing, ESPECIALLY my big sister Brittney (isnt it cute how we have the same name) she gives me amazing advice and simply makes my life wonderful. I hope you all have an amazing weekend, i'm sure i'll update again.
- Sincerely Britt
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ugh its moments like this what I have to ask myself "why do we put up with it again?" I know what you mean though, initially getting mad at the guy. Especially when he said he wasn't going to do it! BUT wtf is up with homegirl entertaining all of this?! grrr just watch out for both parties please!! I think you should still open up to other people, I mean you never know if you'll find someone better, even though all you care about is him :/
Thanks Bri, I was definitely thinking the same thing about watching both of them. Guys guys guys -_-
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